IF you can keep your head when all about you Are losing theirs and blaming it on you, If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you, But make allowance for their doubting too; If you can wait and not be tired by waiting, Or being lied about, don’t deal in lies, Or being hated, don’t give way to hating, And yet don’t look too good, nor talk too wise:
If you can dream – and not make dreams your master; If you can think – and not make thoughts your aim; If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster And treat those two impostors just the same; If you can bear to hear the truth you’ve spoken Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools, Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken, And stoop and build ’em up with worn-out tools:
If you can make one heap of all your winnings And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss, And lose, and start again at your beginnings And never breathe a word about your loss; If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew To serve your turn long after they are gone, And so hold on when there is nothing in you Except the Will which says to them: ‘Hold on!’
If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue, ‘ Or walk with Kings – nor lose the common touch, if neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you, If all men count with you, but none too much; If you can fill the unforgiving minute With sixty seconds’ worth of distance run, Yours is the Earth and everything that’s in it, And – which is more – you’ll be a Man, my son!
Ok I am sure that by now you must have heard of this weird internet money. I am sure you must have seen at least an article somewhere if you are not living in a cave. I become familiar very early as I have a wide plethora of weird friends, so I must say that I was at least curious. I started with a lot of disbelief as I could not understand at the beginning why we need an alternative for the financial system. What was wrong with it? I was pretty ignorant at all at that time and I start to read what is money and how they are made for each country. I learned terms like the national debt and centralized bank, or rather I understood them better this time (I must have studied them once upon a time in high school). After a few more financial literature, I understood why the cryptocurrency proposal could stand a chance. If I would be brave enough to buy some bitcoin at the end of 2010, today I would be rich 😀
I told you several times that one of my biggest deficiencies is my lack of persistence. So after thorough research and a few questions to friends I completely ignored the topic until 2015. That was the year my curiosity revived. I even bought a little bit back then as a learning process. I was trying to understand how I can hold it, where and for how long. Next year the first social media platform based on a blockchain appeared and this time another friend said I should check it out as I love to travel. The way he sold it to me was really appealing, that I can write my blog posts in there and get rewarded in cryptocurrency. So a broad translation getting some sort of money for writing. I completely jumped in that boat and I am one of the early adopters in this case. My first post was in October 2016 only a few months after the website launched in March.
There is something that changed the course of my usual easiness to abandon stuff at high speed. I was not earning enough money on this platform to make a living, far from that, but I start to interact with the other users. I was reading interesting posts about money, science, psychology, or listening to music contests. All of them were created by amazing people that soon enough I start to care about, a real community. The platform was our home and I felt that I should be helping it be alive. The platform was back then called steemit and I was able to set username with my name www.steemit.com/@teodora
One year passed and in 2017 I have decided to attend the first meeting (the first one for me) that was held in Lisbon. Me and another 300 people 😀 It was not my first cryptocurrency meeting as in the past I used to attend networking events in London based on Ethereum or Bitcoin. But the atmosphere was completely different. I felt like at a music festival, everyone there was really excited to be part of that. I met another person originally from Romania and he was as well a very early adaptor and part of the organizing team. I made friends that helped me understand more about different coins on the cryptomarket and gave me the impulse to experiment a little more with trading. I met artists, music writers, people living alternative lives, and very serious people that only spoke about finance and business, a rainbow crowd. I finally felt I fit in, I found my place around them.
I left from Lisbon with friends, funny memories and a determination to be more active in the crypto-world. I attended even more networking events, helped to organize our first Steemit London Meetup and I was investing in small amounts of either coins or ICOs. I become savvy in transaction platforms and I was even hoping I will become a full-time employee of one at a point. Next year, late 2018, meeting/festival was in Warsaw and this time I won a writing contest on the platform and I did not pay the attendance fee or the flight (around 500 euro all in one). Heretofore is the only place I managed to manifest my creative being with persistence, some times daily, other times weekly but minimum once a month. Recently the blockchain had a fork on the same time with Corona Virus, so for now, there are 2 platforms one decentralized and one owned by Justin Sun. This post will be found on www.hive.blog/@teodora which is the decentralized version.
This is a short history of my presence in the cryptocurrency market and by far the easy way to enter if you financial trading does come handy at first glance. Slowly you will be learning how to use the crypto you earn on the platform (if you want to do this) to buy products/services from the “real” world, but I wouldn’t advise doing this too early on. In my case, I truly believe that someday cryptocurrency will worth millions and I will decide then what how to spend my fortune. But to come back to my title, I believe that if you are not getting involved now, learn a little, there is a strong possibility that you are going to miss out speaking the most international money language – cryptocurrency. It will be like the English of 2040, if we consider that now the international language for science is English. So you might say that you still have plenty of years to think about, but from my experience, those years will pass in a blow of a dandelion.
I am sure that the reason you are not yet hooked on the cryptocurrency is because of the fear – that is too complicated, that you might lack the right skills, that you are not good/technical/ intelligent enough. Well experienced them all at the beginning, but I have decided to move on, act aside my fears and to do what is working for me for my earthly personality. I haven’t invested a big amount at once, only what I was comfortable to lose. I made a habit of buying a weekly amount of crypto weekly or monthly and I see it as a long term investment. I am at peace if everything will go down and I will lose everything because I never went wild. But what if I am right and the crypto market will reach the moon by 2040, would you want to start now to learn??
If you are inspired and willing to give it a try, I am willing to help you in this journey. Have a moment to think your questions and send me a summary of what’s unclear and I might be able to bring you some light.
As every good love story, this one happen in Paris. I met him in an exhibition IAAPA where people from the leisure and attractions industry like to exhibit their latest technology. He was a tall UK gentlemen that can shake hand with you, but otherwise pretty inflexible. He had his legs screwed into the floor, so that will not run away and enjoy the trade show 😀
I has so much fun at the company stand that I made the robot fall in love with me, so he displayed his love all over his cheeks and eyes. I realized that someday in the near future some girls might prefer this type of partner because of the following conveniences:
You can have it custom-built, so for example, if you are a pretty tall girl (I consider in that range) you will be able to have very easy a prototype that is 7 feet (2m something) . No more problems if you can or not wear hills on your date, is definitely a yes. As well I can imagine you can work a little bit on design, in case you prefer a black suit or a hippie flower shirt instead of the classy white
He is never angry with you, no matter how many times break a glass on his face by accident or you stumble on his body around the house and he ends up face-down. A simple reboot of his software and you will hear his crystal clear friendly funny voice
It is totally replaceable without all this drama we have around relationships. The broken version will be recycled and can help some poor kids in Africa to learn English. So it is recommended to be changed often so that charities around the world use it where it will need it the most. No couple counseling, hysteria that you will be left alone and friends rescue plans anymore.
It is the next level of sexual pleasure, he has 20 programs installed, easy to configure, and with extra gadgets available for a tiny cost. The robot is never on a business trip or cheating you with the first available cute 20 something girl. Additionally you can add flesh-like textures with warmth and that special perfume you liked on you ex. We have a sample of hair that can be attached by request 😀
It can be your secret or plain sight partner as you wish. We have additional cost for a running partner, martial arts or capoeira teacher. If you choose to be open and let the world know you are dating one of our products we can provide you with some additional marketing discounts.
It is kids friendly by design, one of the fundamental features I would say. Every time you have your friends stopping by with their kids, you can lock them out safely with your partner in the garden and you can rejoice the company of your friends. Your friends will visit you more as they would really appreciate the time to be around adults.
It can be purchased with an installment agreement, up to 20 years. Any replacement of parts will be subject to warranty. So easy to spread the cost and enjoy your robotic love 😀
I had plenty of fun trying to imagine why you would take such a decision. Even though I am a technology freak I really believe humans are not so easy to be replaced. I can see a world with robots at reception, self-driving vehicles, and so on, but is still questionable if some of us will decide in the near future to have a robot as a partner. I say for now that I wouldn’t, but you never know what 20 years will bring.
PS: Just found out is the International Laughing Day, so just on time 😀
Today wasn’t easy to invite inspiration and mood to write on my life. I wake up feeling like running away to a different universe where people are free to roam and they have parties and they go to eat out on nice restaurants by the beach. Well a bit far what is possible in UK for now, so I just settle for my second best, a walk in the neighborhood. Starting last week we received guidance about what is considered to be exercise and we are alow to drive to the place we exercise if the exercise time is longer than the drive. Summary of our lovely police.
So I put some petrol in my lovely Toyota that I have been neglected her since a long time and I hit the road. I chose a castle around 60km of my house and I was ready to go. I have not been in a petrol station for a while and today I realized how much it is changed since my last visit. There is a plastic glass between me and the counter and the transaction was done trough a small window where I swiped my card. Still friendly and smiley and no mask (really really glad is not mandatory in UK). The road was pretty clear so in around 50 minutes I reached my destination.
Must be a long time since I had my last journey in the countryside, but I have been welcomed with a lovely surprise – PUBLIC FREE PARKING 😀 I had a lovely chat with a local that I had to ask if it is for real and we were both made fun of my disbelief. I asked him for directions and he said I could not miss my castle, is just down the road. On my way to the castle, I remember how much I miss those tiny public paths that keep you safe from the unexisting traffic. One of the locals was offering for free to their neighbors’ tiny little seedling in a big variety: cherry tomatoes -children’s favorite, baby plum, Italian plum and cream sausage. No idea that they are so many, yummy. I did not take one, as I am the worst garner I know, I manage to kill all the plants.
Took a deep breath and walk further to see my castle. I was really in the hiking mood and I realized something else that I missed, the buzz of the hiking group. Those moments when you first say your name, try to remember a new face or say a confident hi to people you have seen before in walks. It is like a small ceremony where we try to befriend a fellow traveler.
Hadleigh Castle was initially closed when I arrived, so I walked down towards the Two Tree Island. I met a lot of people hiking today, it was much more crowded than I would expect, all of us taking care to not cross to close to each either in the usual polite British way. What I love about the countryside and the people in the mountains is that they always greet you when you pass by. People in the city, even neighbors they seem to forgot their ruts 😀
Half an hour later when I decided to try again to see if the castle was open I has rewarded for my patience and my perseverance. Few other people joined and decided to have their lunch on the grass there. I must have seen the biggest family gathered all between of the remains of the castle, around 10 kids and 6 adults. I even forgot that they exist with this lockdown.
It was amazing to get back to the places I love. Hiking is one of the biggest joy of my life and having a walk is a great help to fight any signs of depression. I strongly recommend a life that includes regular walks in nature, as maybe you can realize how easy is to in tune with existence. Nature is never boring, small birds, bugs, flowers are always ready to be by your side and to bring joy. Trees for me as well are amazing, I often hug then on my journeys or in parks because they have been for a long time to witness us changing their world without judging us.
On my way back to the castle I realized I forgot to add my funny face somewhere in this short walk. I fixed the issue in a second and I had a long water break and some rest before heading back to my car. I am really more in peace with the world today and a lot of this gaining was the walk in nature. I would love to be able to inspire more and more people to live a simple life and enjoy the trills of some fresh air. Vitamin D is a big gain as well, even in a country where the sun is not so present at full warmth.
For now, I will finish with some bushy flowers because the bumblebee was not really keen to be part of my picture. I feel like my story today is a little dry, but I am with this, especially because you cannot have the same drive and inspiration every day. I am proud as is my 6th day in a row when I am doing this creative exercise and I never expected to be easy and cheerful every day. But as good as it gets, I did show up today for my assignment.
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A traveler friend shared his plans with me about seeing the northern lights in Iceland. When Robert mentioned Iceland a spark inside me lit up and I was ready to jump in the boat. For hikers is a dream and I was planning to see it in the summer someday, but somehow felt the right moment to be there. We booked the same day cheap plane tickets, for the beginning of March 3th till 6th. He flew from Romania to Scotland and from there to Keflavik, the Reykjavik international airport.
I have convinced him that our best bet to see more of this lovely country in a small-time is to rent a car. He was kind of reluctant at the beginning, as he said that they have plenty of ice and snow but I felt I will be able to face it and ready for the extreme challenge. I checked in the advance the parking fee and discovered that more or less is as expensive as the UK, so that was good enough.
I really must mention that the people at the car office rental were so friendly and helpful, that they win my heart in a second. I felt that is the place I will go for sure again in the summer for a camping trip. Half an hour later we were in Reykjavik and parked just in front of our hotel that was situated amazing central 100 m from the big church and the main center, 1 min away from a supermarket that we will find really handy once we checked the prices in restaurants 😀
After the fast and efficient check-in, we were ready to see the little town at night and we hoped for a mixture of a vibrant restaurant and a pub. Well, we found the pub, but they did not serve dinner 😀 So as we were not keen to find it on our own we asked for a recommendation at the bar. We were around 50 meters from our lovely expensive dinner.
We dismiss the Hákarl – Fermented Shark and we chose some normal fish and a local beer. We tried to act normal when our fish was priced at around 32 pounds, only double from the reasonable UK fish and chips price. From someone coming from UK where wages are similar is not so bad, but for someone from living in Romania is a bit over the normal European lifestyle.
It is happening to me pretty much everywhere, I mingle with locals. The restaurant was pretty empty and we only had a couple with us sharing the space. We maybe laughed to loud because at a point they invited us to their table, learned some Icelandic words that I forgot with the next sentence and asked a lot of questions on their life. He was actually Norwegian, they have met in Oslo and decided to move to Iceland where she was born. I remember that Icelandic is like the root for the northern languages, similar with my language. So easy for Icelandic people to speak Norwegian, Swedish. Ok maybe he was a little drunk, but both friendly and they offered a round of beer and hugs at the end.
I have planed for the second day a tour of the Golden Circle, so the most famous tourist attraction nearby apart from the Blue Lagoon that we decide to save for the last day. Below are some of the pictures and videos from that day. After seeing the first attraction I put a mental sticker that I really want to go for at least 2 weeks camping and seeing it a slower pace than from the rush of the car.
We went back home and decided to go later to chase the northern lights that my friend was really keen to see. Armed with an app that informed us when is the best moment and where, we drove to the lighthouse outside the center of Reykjavik to see the wonder. I have seen them in a previous journey in Norway, 6 years ago, so I was mostly sleeping in the car and he was surveying the sky. The place was really nice and quiet and we had many other cars as neighbors. I made friends a German couple that had a different app so we decided together that we are in the best possible spot. Unfortunate aurora was not friendly during our journey in Iceland, but waiting for it was a big part of fun. One picture from the lighthouse below.
The third day was a different adventure, we have decided to go off the beaten track of the tour agencies and we decided for a waterfall in NE, Kirkjufellsfoss. Remember no 4WD and the smallest possible car was our horse for this journey 😀
It took us a while to get back to the capital and I was really concerned at a point that we will be stuck in the middle of nowhere with our tiny vehicle. Luckily the police were really helpful and I might guess very used to people going sideways when they are not used to drive on this weather. My training was done in Romania and with a very small car I used to drive in the mountains, but I never experienced these winds. We did not meet with another car for km and nothingness was the best term to describe the surroundings.
We arrived on our hotel in time for dinner, I went for a fish and chips in a traditional place
Being full, I said I deserve a walk to digest my meal and just walked around the city alone. My friend was resting in the hotel room and I did my kind of favorite walk tour, where the vibe was leading me. Accidentally I arrived by the sea and I found a really cute sculpture
I closed the day with an ice-cream inspired by some Chinese pink girls and I went back to sleep and ready to find out what is our plan for the next day.
The next day was our leisure day, after we were really thinking is we should pay that expensive entrance fee. Well, as we said, once in a while crazy expenditures did not hurt anyone, so we closed our eyes and made the online reservation. I was the one that said it is overrated and we should not do what common people do, but well, life is there to surprise you. It was really nice, I really enjoyed my face mask and healthy mock-tail included in the price.
On the last day, we have decided on a tour of the capital, a city that is cute and with amazing graffiti. It was a sunny Saturday so we were ready to see the last parts before we hit the road back home. We also went inside the famous church and went straight to the tower to see the city from above.
It was absolutely delicious and I hope you took some inspiration to find your own way around this beautiful country. For me is definitively until next time.
Would you say that self-love is common knowledge and easy-peasy for everyone to adopt as a life policy? You just wake up one day full of love for yourself and take a long bath with an amazing view, some chocolate, a glass of red wine and that’s all you need, right? You are from now a person that knows how to take care of yourself and you are in charge of your happiness. I really would like to be so easy and all we need is an aha moment in the bath to nail self-love. Maybe I was the unlucky one to be born in a spot where self-love was the last of least of needs to be fulfilled.
I remember a memory from my early childhood that has been a long trauma in my life. I was really small in height and fragile for my age and my main problem then was that I seem to not be seen. I was not the popular child, but the one that was really shy and always chosen last on the teams’ games, unless no one else was available. Maybe because I wanted to much to fit in and to belong, I was less attractive as I believe small kids feel this instantly. Anyway, it was this big boy that was my enemy as he liked to make fun all the time of my shortness. He used to give me a nickname that I used to hate – Mammut (a big size elephant) and pretty much all the neighborhood started to call me like this, especially the male side of it. I was so embarrassed by the nickname and my shortcoming that it never crossed my mind that he might be wrong. I could not choose my growth rate, obviously, but he was not kind by far.
Sometimes when we have no clue how we can stand up for ourselves, we ask others for help. In this case, I went upstairs, home, crying my eyes out about this boy. My mom, she went like a storm downstairs in the yard to give the boy a moral lesson and a threat that he should not mess up with me ever again. She meant really well of course, like any mom will do for her child, but in my case did not help me to love myself more, au contraire. I was not assertive enough to say that I don’t want to be helped but to understand a way how I can become more confident and not be hurt about facts I cannot change.
Well, I become more and more a hermit, I’ve closed myself more and more my friends become the books. If you read my previous post you would know by now that I started to read early in my childhood and this was somehow my help. When I was around 15 years old, in 1994, I read my first self-help book “The Art of Success For Romanian” by Pavel Corut. I was impressed and hooked by the possibilities described by that book to work with your self and change into an upgraded version. I become soon his biggest fan, read almost all his novels (science fiction with self-help mixed, where his hero was a Romanian international spy that can communicate with extraterrestrial life). I was so inspired by that book that I start to do experiments with myself and look for other self-book from international authors.
I continued my research during my uni, but slowly slowly understood that if I want to be happy I need to find a way to become good enough on my own. It was tedious to dig inside and to understand why I felt unwelcome and unworthy. The outside world becomes a little better, I have decided to offer my friendship than to wait for it to be served on a silver plate. I was analyzing my hurts all the time and tried to see how I can handle them so that they will not manifest on others. I met wonderful people then and we shared special moments, but in parallel, I continued my research on how I can love myself more. In my case, that was to forgive myself for not being able to speak about the things that were difficult for example or to cry in front of others (still on progress with this one).
After years and years of self-inquiry, I am not saying is a walk in the park. After more than 25 years from my first book and a lot of self-testing, doubting, trying and implementing and then repeat, I might be able to say I am a bit more close by. I have reached an agreement with my body and I love it as it is, I managed to be in peace that I am weird and I can now dance even on social media without the fear of being rejected or unfit. I can even admit to my friends when I feel week or not whole and be more ready to accept suggestions without feeling my base attacked. I tend to allow more time to think and not to react from anger with a sharp voice. All these are small, tiny baby steps towards self-love. I meditate more, surround myself with friends that can be supportive but can also help me see when I am turning the wrong way. I pay more attention to what I eat, say, not let the noise of media too much inside my head.
Spa, massage, body healing, festivals of awareness, meditation all these helped me, even more, to realize that “I AM ENOUGH”. Sometimes this -I am enough- could be I feel sad and my world is gray and outside is raining and not feel like moving from the bed. Otherwise could be that I am ready to start a blog and let everyone know what are my struggles so they maybe feel more self-love. Either way, self-love is an endurance process and not an achievement. It is a lifetime goal. One of my favorite eastern gurus is a funny one, OSHO and one of his quotes that I love is that
“Life begins where fear ends.”
Self-love is not an easy task, it needs effort and constant work. It is less about instant gratification and more about consistency, perseverance and sweat. It is a day to day journey and very easy to slide away. So it is a miracle that I am still on the path. I am glad for my journey so far and I am confident that I am going to maintain my practice until the end. How has it been your self-love journey?
Do you remember the first time you pack your bags and felt ready to go out there and see the world through your one eyes/perspective? We can sit at home and travel with our dreams too, but the action is what brings us the adventure and the filling that we actually learned something by experience. I grew up in Romania, in a small town in the north-east and I had no idea how big was the world until I have read my first adventure book. It was the Romanian writer Constantin Chirita and his series “Ciresarii” that inspired me to beg my parents to allow me to go to summer camps since I was maybe 10 years old. Then Mark Twain was the next on my list and I discovered that they are oceans to see, different cultures and my imagination was on fire.
I start to dream a kind of life for me far from the small place I have lived, not because is something wrong with it, but because I become soon an experience junkie. I still remember the summer camp in my very early years with a big fire-pit and with wild horses that were so excited about our presence there in the middle of nowhere that they started to kick our door during late night. I loved everything about that trip, the small poems we used to recite by the fire, the friendship, the connection we had with the other kids in the camp. All this was possible because I am blessed with an amazing family and they believed I can take care of myself on a new environment and would not be scared about the head lice I might come back with – as a gift from them 😀
My first travel outside the country was when I was 19 (could sound so late for many of you) but considering my context and age I was an early adopter. I had to apply for a Schengen visa at the Greece embassy and luckily my lovely auntie, that I was visiting, send her man inside to have a chat and issue the visa on time for our journey. I have seen marvelous places and those 3 months were another beginning for me. One of the places I really recommend from that trip is Vouliagmeni lake, you can see some pictures on the link below:
As per today, I have seen around 61 countries (count made by a friend that we have some sort of competition) and I am always in the mood for new discoveries. I like to travel alone and mingle with locals, to taste strange food (like some awful spicy donuts in a Divali festival in New Dehli), to be inspired by musicians and follow them in strange places. I trust people wherever I go and that is my gift and reward at the same time. I have seen hidden treasures, sunrise in the desert with receptionists, tea on the mountains with simple people but warm-hearted. I really believe Earth is a safe place and fear is just a tool we need to work so that we can overcome it.
I have tried scuba-diving in the best seas of this world, paragliding on the mountains, snowboarding, sand-boarding, kite-surfing, paddle-boarding, flying in helicopters and small planes, down-hill cycling from 4700 meters and one of the biggest zip-lines in Peru. If there is a new activity I have missed I probably tried or is on my list. I believe fear is now my constant friend and even some of you might consider me crazy I believe is better to live your fears than constantly wondering how they are going to be overcome. I have a bit of claustrophobia, so toilets in plains used to be a challenge until they become just a bit annoying. I like to discover parts of me that I did not know in different situations and to push the limits around my personal walls. I am not a hero of any kind, just a very keen learner and I tend to believe that the biggest gift we have as humans is to adapt to new situations. But remember we need to put ourselves in new situations, otherwise, we are going to be in the same place for a long time.
I don’t have a favorite country from the ones I have seen, I love them all with their particularities and with their people and eccentricities. I felt that more I travel more I meet people like me, everywhere on this planet. People that mean well, curious to allow you as you are in their different culture, society, mind perspective. You should never trust the news-media and go see it on your own and feel it with your own gut. We are all the same with good and bad. Of course, I have been robbed in Chile but at the same time, in Romania, at least 3 times and friends from South-America were robbed in London, so everywhere are some bad seeds. But in my case, those people never put me off traveling or enjoying the rest of their country.
So I guess I am a strong advocate of my favorite passion and is sad for me when people choose to go every year in the same sea resort, with food similar to the one home and plenty of alcohol to help them forget why they are even there in the first place. But could be that some of us expand their world in different ways than mine and jugging is not helping either of us. There is a big world out there and my case today for it, is that is beautiful because is differentbut then again so much alike.
“Once the travel bug bites there is no known antidote, and I know that I shall be happily infected until the end of my life.” – Michael Palin
Do not forget to use my comment section as I like to read your thoughts on this subject. How do we make people travel more and feel safe when they do?
I just found out that British Airways canceled my trip to Japan. I waited for this for a long time, always planning to get there for hiking but somehow was never the right moment. Last year me and my friend Larisa we actually made plans to visit Tokyo, Osaka and the northern island Hokkaido. We dreamed about a long camping trip, she upgraded some of her hiking gear. She is a great companion on the mountains and I would dare to say we are both experienced enough to make the journey easy and alow for some unplanned events on the trail. I was really thrilled about her coffee-making skills and we talked about cooking vs buying ready-made meals. I draw a map of the main points on our journey and she made fun of my planning skills. We were on track to make our dreams a reality.
If you live on the same planet with us, you would know by now or guess why our journey has been postponed. A so-called virus is spreading fear among otherwise reasonable human beings. It is difficult to stay apart and not take sides on this matter, especially if you appreciate a good debate as an exercise. I must state my position (as is my blog and I can say what I want for now in here), that for me this virus hype is overrated. Viruses have always been part of our life and for me is weird that for this one we have taken measures without precedent. On the other side, democracy is still an emerging state around here and we have not learned our lessons how easy is to be taken away from us. I am born in a communist country and the measures worldwide today remind me of that time.
I am more ready now to embrace changes as I tend not to fight with them as in the past. I used to be a very keen and objective-goals oriented person, but later in life, I learned that what makes me happier and fulfilled is the flow. Of course, I am sad that my plans will not become reality this early June, but I am sure that in the end, I will have another journey that was meant to happen. I am disappointed and is sad that we don’t live in our ideal worlds, but I chose not to submerge into this energy and to see the positive aspects of this postponement. I will have more time to build other dreams and to work on other substantial aspects of my beloved character.
I dont really believe in 7-steps recipe to heal your life, so for me was a long adventure to get here. I had my ups and downs, I struggled to understand how I can get better. One of the funniest exercises that helped me, I discovered maybe 10 years ago and is very simple. I dont remember where I have read it, maybe a self-help book or maybe just a novel.
Write a letter to your future self at least every 6 months and only read it two years after. As I was always tech-savvy of course my letter was an email.
So the first letter I wrote made so excited and I detailed how i believed my life will be in the next 2 years. I remember to write about my predictions on my professional life, love life and general hints regarding new trends in society. Well it was one of the most thrilled adventure I launched myself in. My first letter was 3 pages and I really really thought I was going to be so right…..
The second one, over the 6 months, my enthusiasm sink a little bit. I still had my fingers on fire to read the first one ahead its term, but my mom did a good job and I am a well-trained individual so if the stake is high enough I can postpone my immediate desires. Well back to the second one, only one and a half page more structured and less dreamy. I was more ready to realize that if my life will not meet my expectations I will be still ok and alive and smiling.
For the third one, I almost missed my term as I remember I used to travel with friends on the mountains and back then the mobile phone had not the same features and capabilities as they have now. I manage to forgive myself for being late and I went straight to my dreaming about the future. I learned to dream different from one letter to another and to think about why this exercise was becoming more and more important. It was not the thrill of reading the result but the acknowledgment that I will be happy with either of the options: if my reality will become true or if I was really far away.
When the time to read my first letter finally arrived I already have forgotten the content of the letter. My heart was filled with butterflies and I made myself a tea and took a cushion to support me. It was how I expected somehow, naive, emotional, and brave at the same time. I pay attention to understand why I dreamed about those things and how I felt when I interacted with me and my desires in the past. It was a mix of emotions that burst into the present and I felt it was a tiny step to understand myself more. I did cry (yes is my secret as i am a strong confident woman) and accepted that from that moment I will not be the same. I had to embrace the fact that life is and is going to be unexpected and find my way to deal with this resolution.
My point with this story is that no matter what we think, our life is going to change. I would say you can, of course, fight it and then be miserable or be humble and embrace it and many tiny steps in between. For me is helpful to know that I can be wrong with my predictions and still be happy, how do you take it?
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Today is the day!!!! I have decided after a long processing time that I am reopening my blog and I am quite thrilled about it. No idea why is now the best moment as we are facing some interesting moments with the Corovirus flu-like virus that put our beautiful world under the key. We are not allowed to travel, meet friends or family and just enjoy faraway places that i used to like
This picture is from the pyramid in Teotihuacan near Mexico City and is the place I had a touching spiritual experience. I felt so inspired by that place that i was resting in a yoga pose (child pose) and once i felt full in heart and at one with a place I met an old man. He stood in front of me and said “I feel you are really at home today”
Maybe it was the perfect time for me to start my blog and to test if this time is gonna stick with me for a long time. For the moment I set a personal 21 days challenge to write a post daily. First one is on air, 20 to go.
I have a strange relationship with commitment in this life and rarely I manage to do things with consistency. Apart from my work domain that is more almost the same, the rest of my life is somehow fluid. Is not a complaint, au contraire.
I love trying new things and I am fully committed to change and reinvent myself as often as possible. Sometimes this could mean to set difficult goals like learning a complicated skill or being more kind in my approach to certain individuals. I tend to agree that I could be described as a ego-eccentric individual but is good to play and surprise.
My first post does not seem to have a central idea but could be that my energy tonight is not necessarily structured as I wish. I started from scratch this blog around 7.30 pm this Monday and for now, is as good as it gets. Optimization and a more fancy look from tomorrow onwards.